おかしいように

Hoho, today nothing to do, so i clean up the kitchen with my housemates...
Wawa, took some time though...
Nothing special, watching animation as usual and gaming...
Talk funny, last night i went to 1u to shop...
I was so bored that i went to play the boxing thingy...
Guess what? I injured my tumb =="
Some how i felt stupid and funny, giving RM1 to injured myself...
Haha, i went to buy 1 pink shirt...
Wow, not bad, quite nice, though i feel it's kinda stupid that our lecturer ask us to wear in that matter...
However, i'm cool with it later on xD
Chao...

This is what one of my good friend wrote...

"真正的爱情不是用钱来衡量！不应该以钱来打量一个人的真心。相爱的两个人不一定要去什么高级餐厅用餐。就算在小餐厅也会吃出幸福和温馨的。一起散散步，谈谈心事那也是很快乐哒。把对方抱在怀里，每天拖手手很温暖的。给我，最快乐的，不是一起走广场，而是一起走百货市场。一起买蔬菜，选水果。一起选购家里缺少的日用品。理所当然不是叫你每天都去超市咯！如果去广场，我们可以一起看靓仔靓女咯！然后就得充当你的搬运工人了。在家里，一起准备吃的，在厨房里打情骂俏，那有几温暖吖！爱就是要学习维持。我们应该学习控制自己的情绪。不能因为吵架，往往把分开、分手挂在嘴边。你会说他不了解你，他不够爱你。你要的，他给不到。你会说：下一个会更好。可是你有没有想过？世界上是没有百分百了解你的人。下一个又下一个，你只是在那里浪费时间与青春。要对方了解你，
你就应该把你的想法告诉对方。大家一起商量，改进。不然当你们分开后，然后和别人开始新恋情，那时候你才会觉得之前的他会更好。因为你觉得累了，而之前的他你们彼此都了解了不少。现在又要从头开始，就只有累咯！不要轻易的牵手，更不要轻易的放手。"
Copy righted from: "Shu yang's blog"
Shu Yang, I totally agree with you!!! Let's Gambateh ^_^

散歩に行く

Today go red box singing, but it's kinda weird...
Hahaha, and got people emo, even weird, damn it....
Hehe, but it's the same la, nothing special, finish singing go back d lo...
Nothing much to do also...
So damn bored, buy games to play but forget my computer is a hell of a shit, damn useless, can't support =="
So now like pig, sleep, eat and go out only lo, nothing much to do...
Felt empty some how...

我理解します,したがって,我戻ってきます。。。。しかし,何我待機しています用- <<グレー虹>>

Now, i can only say that...
I'm too late...
Because, the rainbow has lost it's touch and colour...
Thought i could restore it in the beginning...
Too bad, things doesn't turn out to be as smooth as before...
Haiz, what a terrible scene it turn out to be...
"Grey-rainbow"

何も特別で，しかし，まだ彼女を逃す...

Nothing special for today,just thinking of wanting to write something...
Long time din see you update your blog d,dono how are you and what are doing going lately...
As for me,everyday pig like hell...
Sometimes even pig till i forget to eat my dinner...
Ha,so empty,meaningless,sometimes......

キッチン

Today we had a fun cook in the kitchen...
Some how,this time is a bit enjoyale than every class...
When i start to fry,the pan goes on fire and wush!everything goes to normal and ready to serve,damn cool xD
Hehe,quick and efficient is what we are looking for xD
Although some are being scold,be human being are born imperfect...
That is why we have to work together to achieve something beyond our limitation...
Though we are im perfect each individually,but we may have skills which non others may have...
Kitchen,a nice place to help out^^
Next is the service,i really can't wait to start!=p

Improvements

Now I finally go deeper in my understanding towards' ya...
Still, everything is currently at a standstill, and there is a chance of turning back with a stab invisibly though, currently ready for everything I encounter because of strong self determination =p
Environment-"the condition that you work in and the way they influence how one feel or effectively one works"...
One can find the definition of "Environment" in the dictionary anytime and anywhere as long as they have a dictionary in their hands...
Well, environment, it's something I think, very powerful and dreadful, if you put it in a sort of long term direct contact...
One can be influence badly or maybe good in a way just by depending on the environment they are in contact with...
The influence applied to it is none other than both physically and mentally...
Not to mention, the needs of one is depend on the environment as well...
As different environment means the different needs for example to overcome the current condition or to protect one from harm, physically and mentally...
When one is so use to the environment they are currently in but suddenly, a sudden change is applied, I bet, one will not except the change immediately instead, a performing of defensive mechanism is active prior...
Oh how I wish things are as easy as it looks in fantasy, but fantasy is always something too good to be real in the reality; to put it in words for a better understanding-it doesn't exist, because reality is always cruel, both inside and out...
So, as a nutshell to "Environment", I think environment is so powerful in its influencing mechanism that I could put it in a way that it actually effects One's life, destiny and choices in reality...
Sad to say that it's a fact...
Also a fact that I'm currently facing in life...
It'll be a one way trip to hell or heaven when it comes to the choices we make in our life...
No one can be blame as it's our choice, and everyone has a different answer for every question and needs...
All in all, I can finally put everything into sense that things won't go as smooth as it sounds like in words and in fantasy dreams, damn cruel, Reality!!!
There are tons of influence and blockage in our life that we have to force our way through, it won't be an easy trip though, it's always beyond our limitation, well, in order to achieve the desire we are dying for...
Haha, that is, if someone is that serious in everything xD
Well, we hardly see that kind of people in this era though...
More importantly, don't ever lie to ourself or you will regret for life...
That is what i always been telling and reminding myself in everyday life...
Have confident in ourself and don't ever over seal ourself from everything especially the emotional line stream...
In my way of putting the emotional stream-it's the road to everything wonderful in life...
One will never get the meaning of it unless they try it on their own, of course...
Sad to say, this cruel world is always suppressing it, and that is why many fell and desperation befalls...
Therefore, management is needed for maximization...
So, that's all for today, good luck in everyday life and May god bless ever being in this cruel world of reality...

Express

There are things that is hard to express by words...
So...
Haiz...

TODAY

Nothing much happen for today...
My mum came to visit me,haha,cook a lot of nice food for us to eat ^^
Hahah,so long didn't eat the things she cooks,miss it so much xD
Heheh,later on,nothing much...
Kinda bored,nothing to do and no one to chat with....

Oh ya...

My performance is just over,i mean for the SHTCA ones...
Hahahha,don't know what the results will be though...
Hehehe,but what i know is i'm a bit nervous that time,when i'm singing...
Wahahah,but i assume that i have done my best^^
Hope eveything turn out well...
Because i have something in mind if i'm selected to be the representative for my class...
But it's not for the class,you see,it's....
A secret!!!!!Hahaha....

Hope

Hope i'm not too late for everything...
Hoping,that's what i have in mind now...
Hoping...
Hoping...
And hoping...

原来如此！！！

总算我明白了一些东西。。。
感情的事，对我来说，是可以超越你所给的极限。。。
所谓极限，就在“信任”，这两个字上。。。
我一直都不明白，直到现在，我才明白，很多人对感情上的看法跟我差很远。。。
真正的感情世界里，对我来说不是你所说你那样，根本就不是那么单调的。。。
或许我太天真了吧，可是我相信那是有可能的。。。
我一直都在努力着，也没有放弃过这种想法。。。
我，很努力地去证明给这世界看，感情不是那样的。。。
或许可以酱说吧，没有不太代表不存在。。。
我没要求过，你所认定感情会给来的-“失去”吧，不是吗？
或许，我没发现吧？假如我曾经有。。。
是，我就是在跟你说话。。。
也真的很对不起，其实我没什么恶意。。。
我只是想说，感情的事，不是你想象中的那样，那只不过是小部分，别那么快就认定它是个怎样的东西。。。
你要多多加油哦！别放弃你的目标！！！

Lost

There are things in our live that if we lose it, we will never get it back again…
It's not something rare; on the other hand, it's a normal phenomenon...
That is why we have to cherish every moment we have with the one thing that is important to us...
One way or the other, one has to experience it to know what it feels like...
As for me, I don't think it can be expressed through ink or words...
Oh how I miss the one I cherish the most at that time...
Going back? I don't think it is going to happen right after everything is being sabotage...
Well, I’m kinda blank and numb...
Yet I still accept the representative as Mr.SHTCA without full notice, well, blur…
Actually, I don't have any interest or any intention in being the so called SHTCA, it’s nothing to me...
Haiz, now, there left 10minutes before the elimination round start, and I, have nothing in hand which means no preparation at all...
I just plan to bring myself on stage, well, do my best, I guess =D
Hahaha, sing with my neck like a parrot =D
Haahahha, hope I can bring what's best in myself as myself on the stage...
Wining is not my goal, but singing is my hobby^^
Hahaha, how can I run away from a battle, especially singing, or maybe something related to it...
Hehehe, well, as for now, maybe, just maybe...
Erm...
Don’t know what I am gonna write either =D
Hahaha, damn stupid and blur =P
Maybe still floating aimlessly in my fantasy world of Nothing...
So sad and numb...

Yet

Yet,maybe things are just as simple as it looks,sort of...
I dono,or maybe it's just because im narrow hearted,one way or the another...
Still keeping a nostalgic feeling,it's the only thing i wont want to forget right now...
Damn,how stupid am i...and what am i writing???haiz...

Confusing

Don't lie to yourself,that is something i always remind myself...
It's quite confusing sometimes,you know,something that you want to do but in the meanwhile,you justt don't...
Well,i think that is one of the things that keeping consealinng myself from the outside world...
Still,there are still several cures for that,ahhaha....
Today is quite fun,but later on,a strom clouded my sky...
So,it's quite glommy after that...
xD watching animation now,boring,nothing to do also,not to mention,lazy and tired...

About the 18th

We humans don't have anything in the first place,so we are born alone and eventually go alone...
Kinda lonely sometimes,yet,kinda used to it,remain silent,thinking,wondering in my own fantasy,day dreaming,maybe,sometimes,still,but,yet,etc...
Anyway,today i watched G.I.Joe,quite a nice show that shouldn't be missed^^
The elimination round for the SHTCA's is approching fast,dono what to do,kinda blank,you know,go blank all of a sudden?
Well,have a lot in mind that needs to settle down...
Feels irritating,i mean,the SHTCA thingy,and confusing,weird,damn weird....

One way trip...

Happy to know such a nice girl like you...
At least i know there are girls like you still crawling around xD
Hahaha,but sadly to say,i think it's a one way trip for me...
Two,actually,and now it's the final...
I already banish myself from you,so i don't think things will be back to normal now...
You should go on with them cause you are happy with them,right^^
Don't worry about me,but do remember,i will never ever hate such a girl like you,ever.It's just that i can never face myself right now,sorry...
It's a farwell from me,at least for now cause i may need a lot of time,few years?Maybe,hah,don't want to think about it thought...
I doubt our path will ever cross again...
Well,sort of,felt that way...
Anyway,you still have them,so,good luck on your way to success and may all your wishes come true...

^^

Good to see that you are going as smooth as ever,take care and don't over do it...

Go on...

Just forget about me and go on,cause im not somone you should remember...
Carry on with your happy life,and that is what i hope to see...

Gone

Sometimes,i really wish i could get out of here,right here and right now on the spot...
How i wish to be there for you all the time,cause i know it myself,i didn't hate you at all,but i realise how much i like you instead...
Unfortunately,i know you want your freedom...
And i myself,don't have the gusts to face you now...
So,Athough i'm no longer there,but hear me out:''You will always remain in me,in my heart...''

Chao...

I'm back with a reason before and now it's done...
Happy to be there for you when you need a person and i'm overjoyed to see your smile again...
Oh ya, not to mention hearing the news which is a joyful one...
So damn over the moon...
But sadly to think that i'm not needed any more,cause i felt that way...
And about that,i don't think i can bear the so-called "Uncomfortable" feeling...
It is One of the things that i dislike the most In My Life...
That is why i chose to Go Back again...
I may be back again in the near future....
But everything depends...
So,just may be...
Just may be...
Anyway,i wish you all the best...
See ya...
Chao....

Go bcz of U,Bck bcz of u...

Yo,i'm kicking and back for more action and adventure xD hahaa....
Lately i have been quite bored with the current situation where by no one is in the house except for myself...
Lonely,so lonely and boring...
I' have been playing a lot of on9 game this few days and do a lot of cooking xD
Guess what?it when black xD hahahah,cause i'm dreaming,but later on ok d,very nice xD
Wahahaha,so sad to hear that u are in a bad mood,being scold and so on...
I felt pity, and i just wanna hug u and rub your tears off,silly girl,don't cry...
U are not alone,i will always be there on a look out for u,no matter what it takes...
Whatelse would i afraid of?I'hv been pierced,die n reincarnated;ghost,angel or devil,met them all....
Hah,just hoping that you will not suffer like this....
And i bet your friends think so too.....
Be strong girl,i know you can do it^^