Past

Wow, last night, I really exceeded my limit...
From the minute I woke up, I went to college and had my kitchen class...
When I finish my class, wush, there I go again...
I ran home to take a bath mainly to refresh myself and to get rid of the sweat...
Later on, I went to Sungai Wang with one of my NS friend...
Hoho, and she was gonna choose a dress for her on going wedding dinner on this coming saturday...
We shopped for about 5 hours searching for a perfect dress...
Finally we saw one perfect dress that she likes...
WoW, she was so sexy and pretty in that dress...
Some how I think girls in dresses are so sexy >.<
Haha, and we go tempanyaki for dinner...
The Sukiyaki is very nice and very cheap as it is very big in size, those mad eaters can't miss it, but it is full of vegetables =p
It only cost about RM 10.00, not bad right?
When I reached home, my legs were really killing me, damn it was burning like hell...
Haha, I clean myself real fast and jump onto my bed to give myself some resting while sms'ing with my friends...
After that, I fall asleep as usual =p
Meanwhile, I had a strange dream, and I get all blank in the morning thinking of her...
That dream goes like this...
It was a sunny day in my school at Taiping, it is a high school actually...
I was enjoying my meal of "Nasi Lemak" in the canteen while people were playing soccer on the field...
When I'm feasting, suddenly, the discipline teacher came and had a spot check on the spot...
As I was so in to it, eating my delicious meal, that I didn't realize the disciplinary teacher was there...
In time, I was interrupted by them, a discipline teacher and a prefect by the side...
I was in my regular T-shirt and slippers, so I was being questioned and interrogated...
When everything is finished, I was so shock to see tons of photos appearing on my plate of unfinished Nasi Lemak...
When I turn the photo, I saw her on the photo, the very first girl that I fall in love with...
I was so shocked and surprise that I stood up Scannig around myself, searching for the guy who attached those photos on my plate but I fail to do that...
Everyone in the canteen was staring at me with astonishing eyes and I was like didn't really care about them...
The quantity of the photos was huge, and I started to tuck those photos in my pocket as fast as I could as I don't want anyone to see it...
Suddenly, I woke up by myself right before my alarm triggers...
I suddenly go blank and thought about her again, the photos were so clear...
It was her sweet little face, a face that I won't forget in my entire life...
She was a cute, beautiful, active, playful, smart, tough and a hardworking girl...
I was falling on my knees for her that time, real bad, haha...
She was not from a wealthy family but she was a willing to work kind of girl...
That is so my type of girl...
Although the world is being unfair to her, I still love her a lot...
She works at night to earn and to take care of her father while she manages her schooling and homework quite well...
At least that is what I get to know that time...
We were a happy couple back then...
But sadly to say, things didn't turn out quite well in the end for us, we had a serious misunderstanding and she stopped talking to me for two months...
Still, I waited for her...
I was so damn frustrated for some unfair decision she made but I waited patiently in the end...
Finally she gave me a call one night but she stated that she wanted to break up with me...
It was only the third month since we were a couple...
Surely I am the one who disagree, MOST! And I ask if things could be reversed, but I was rejected for she was too determine...
Till now, I still don't have a clear reason why she left me...
All she left for me was : "You are a good guy" and "Sometimes you treat me too good till I'm in a lot of pressure"...
I am totally lost within those phrases...
That day, I was so down that I can't even sleep and eat for a whole day...
I requested to met her the last time but was rejected as she says she may change her mind later on because she may missed the time we spent together or maybe something like that...
She once told me that she won't leave me that easily...
I trusted her with my heart and soul but still, the table turns...
So, that is how we broke up...
Till now, we walked our seperated ways for nearly about one and a half years...
She is still working in the same place but now she works twice as a two types of work...
Well, we still chat, only sometimes...
Quite rare, as she is a busy girl...
Now, I finally understand what the phrase "We are of the different world" means...
That is, after my second time of failure in relationship...
But sometimes I disagree...
It is because my parents set a very good example for that "Different" kind of world couple...
My dad was from a quite standard family while my mum was from a quite normal of maybe even lower than normal...
Although the fact remains cruelly, I admire my dad and my mum as they went through so many blockage together and they never give up...
Finally, they made it in the end...
And who says different worlds of people can't be together?
Well, not me, definitely NOT me...
I encounter the same thing again in my second relationship...
Man, why am I always the unlucky one?
I know I may end up with ThaT again way ahead of time as it is not an easy thing, but still, I press on with my heart and soul ; as I am trying to prove that this cruel world is not a match for true love...
Those kinds of things are not an excuse for me and moreover, that is the type of girls I like...
Well, I am really speechless now...
What I have in mind is...
Nothing is impossible if you put your heart and soul in it, even the impossible maybe a possible...
I just hope everything will turn out well throughout my unrevealed future...
I will try my very best to make the best out of everything in my life...

Yo

Yo, long time didn't update my blog already...
Well, it's really been some time cause I'm on a holiday xD
Haha, but too bad, my hometown's streamx is down, so I don't have the chance to surf the net though...
Anyway, been around my hometown and I went with my old friends...
So sweet of them, still remember me xD
Hahaha, though some of them are already couple...
Find it quite nice, although nothing much, the activity done, more or less like the one here...
But it's the matter of friends I guess ^_^
Kinda fun though, go to the movies...
And wow, first time to sit at the front line =="
Really got my head spinning and aching...
Haha, still it's kinda, different =p
Hehe, and we went singing, bla bla bla...
Well, kinda miss them now, so warm...
Hope to see them again ASAP ^_^
Haha, kinda feels like home when they are around =D
Now I'm back, to this town, hoping to start my first day of college...
Cause I can't wait to get my hands dirty xP
Oh, how I hope I could reach my goals, hoho...

Possibility

Anything is possible if we try, or maybe we have to try harder...
Even the impossible may become a possible if you place our heart and soul in it, keep trying and trying, in a correct way of course...
You won't know until you try, isn't it ^_^
Never give up without a fight, or you will regret it for the rest of your life...
We can choose to obtain the impossible bare handed or to give up everything without even give it a go and later regret about it...
What's the use of regreting anyway?
I'm sure we all have regrets in life, everyone has it and I'm not excluded, but do we wanna create more regrets after we learn about regrets?
Of course it's a big No nO...
So, what are you waiting for?
You should start trying whatever you think you wouldn't wanna regret later...
It won't hurt for anyone to try ^_^
Don't ever give up so easily in life, you can do it...
Go Go Go...

Study

Yo, exams and test is around the corner xD
Hoho, need to study already xD
Study study, hope to get good result...
Good luck to all my friends...
Gambateh and GoGoGo =p

Words

Today, I'm just in a mood to write something =D
Words, it is something very powerful in a sense of way. Some say that The pen is mightier than the sword. Well, I agree with that, somehow. As you can see, with a pen on a person's hand, he can write anything that comes in his mind, in fact, he can make an impossible possible in the world of "words"; comparing with a sword, a sword can only used to slice objects, but that also depends on the object or target, not everything can be slice or being damage by swords. One more thing about the comparison between these two, there is another fact. Pen, as one of the mother of words, can penetrate people's heart and damage them severally; unlike swords, it can only damage it physically and that can be cure by applying medicine. There is no known medicine that can cure the wound made by words, even till now, where our world is standing proudly in the name of technology, that fact still reminds. That is what I think, so far. With a pen in hand, we can create something far beyond our imagination. Haha, that is, if we have the skill to do that. Words, it meant a lot, just by looking at it. Anyway, everything has its both sides, The Angle & The Devil- which resemble the good and the bad, the positive and the negative. For what I think about this, everything has it speciality and its feedback, it's quite normal and it's the universal law. Ok, let's come to the point, we, use words to communicate and exchanging ideas throughout life. Unfortunately, because of that, conflicts happen. Sometimes, it happens without us knowing it though; while on the other hand, some conflict happens or is created purposely by someone to hurt or damage the other. As for my personal solution to cast aside unwanted clashing between others, I try not to make it a reality. Well, how to put that in simpler words? As everyone knows, although words are a powerful weapon sometimes, it is still a virtual reality thing. So that's why I declare things in a way of not making it a reality. If you do react and reply, you are just injecting life into the virtual reality words and place it in the reality world, whereby you are turning nothing into something. There are people out there that purposely use words to make people aggressive and toying with people's temper and so on. Although it's easier said than done, we should try not to make IT into a reality. If we do act in an out of control state, we are falling for it, into their trap. Try not to make ourselves suffer as all of us have a short life in this world, we should try to forget things sometimes. As what they say, forgive and forget. I like this phrase a lot because I totally agree with this amazing phrase. So, as a conclusion for today, try to forgive and forget, it will definitely makes life better ^__^

Disadvantage

Don't know why I felt different this few days as if things are going the wrong way for me although I didn't mean it. The disadvantage keeps knocking on my door and I'm really done for, quite. Life is not easy, seems like I've been torn to pieces, just like a paper, just like a broken glass. Sometimes I may feel lost for a second, as if I have lost a fragment of myself, a missing piece in the puzzle, a hole in my heart, empty, lost, and found again for the time being. Life is cruel, Life is hard, and it's not easy. Still, confrontation is my answer. If we see the same particular things in a different way, maybe, just maybe, we will see the goodness of that particular "thing". One way or the another, I will still grab hold to myself and make a path for myself bare-handed. The road which is chosen by me, myself, it must go on, if there's a start, there's an end. Although things starting to befall on me in a disadvantage way, yet I still think this is just the start of a new me in life. I bet everyone may have experience something more or less the same in their daily life, and I, no we, are just a small fragment which occupied the so-called life's stage - It's like an acting, it's like a show, although it's hard and it may even hurt you heavily & deep, it still have to go on; time will not stop for anyone of us in this universe, neither will it run faster for those who is suffering; the right and the proper way of doing something is always the hard way, it takes more than just brains, muscles and guts to walk that path. The one who manage to control, manage and disciplin themselves to the right path is the one who will really succeed in life. Have we ever though before? That everyone has the same amount of time and same amount of brain cells, but what makes a person succeed in life? Succeed in life is not something you can see only through a physically perspective, true succession in life brings true meaning of life, meaning of living, to overcome our weakness and to find your true self, that's what i think. Though success in life is everyone's dream, it has always been a rough road, a pain in the ass and the needle in the eye. Though knowing that, we still have to move on although things are in a disadvantage position for us. Be strong as "you are lonely only when you are alone, but that will never happen because you will always have yourself; if you like yourself, you will never get lonely". "A positive anything is better than a negative nothing"......
Be strong, be strong...

Warning! Disconnection!

Didn't you see why i din link others to my PERSONAL blog?
That is the reason why I don't want to link=="
But just for this time, i can make an exception cause you didn't get my warning...
If anyone of you wants to view this blog, be prepare, cause you will find facts and my own experiences throughout my life...
If the viewer can't take it or can't accept it, Please, LEAVE!!!
Don't leave any unwanted comments...
I treat this blog as my inner world's voice, to make it understandable, it is a me living in the internet...
So, this is my world, my blog, and my right to write what i feel and what i experience and if you dislike it, please don't view this blog as i never ever link any stranger's blog or what-so-ever, It's just that my Classmate pin it without my permission as they don't know my blog is a special place for ME!
So after this incident, I wanna make it PERSONAL...
Come to the point, that is the main reason why I never link anyone to my blog as I don't want any invaders to corrupt my blog, MY world and the one and only PLACE Which I feel comfortable voicing out my thoughts...
I just want a place which I can voice out my feelings...
Now that i have warn all the viewers, if anyone can't accept my PERSONAL blog, Kindly, Please, LEAVE!!! You will only leave comments that corrupts my WORLD. And I don't think you like that if someone did the same to you...
Please & Thank You!

Well

Things goes normal today, like the weather...
What that is over, just let it go, no harm done^^
And i got one comment, wow, not a very nice one but hey, I cool with that...
But just one thing...
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Realize

I never thought I would come across a day when I came to realize life is not that beautiful-like I imagine it would be...
They say "it's even harder to be a good guy compared to being a bad guy"...
You know what? I came to realize that today...
And it also goes like this, "having one friend is better than having none at all"...
Unfortunately, from my point of view, trust and the understanding between friends is more to it. Meaning, I rather have only a few trustworthy and understanding real friends then having those who can't even get over with small things. From the choosing friend part, I really disagree on "having one is better than none". So when it comes to serious decision making, i will even choose none...
Not to mention, I came across things like "not everybody will like or agree with you all the time". Well, you could say it is very commonly heard, but I finally taste the meaning of this, the hard way. Not to say that I'm very mad at all these, cause I know what attitude the other holds, and i don't have issues about it as I tried to understand them as well. Now I got my answer, they don't need me to understand, well, fine to me. Shockingly, what i'm surprise is that one my good friend-that is, if that is what she thinks of me. She really doesn't have a clue about me does she? All these time, you mean I'm talking to myself? Well, maybe you are lucky to met someone like me, tell you this, i don't hate, sad, mad, angry or frust because of you doing so. My way of doing things is to forget. So if you take things that way, fine by me, I can just cast everything aside and say goodbye. So, you choose...
Guys, you know what? I'm not those people that don't take things seriously, you know? Yayaya, I know sometimes we shouldn't take things that serious like I do, but remember to set your limit. It's funny to think about it you know? But i plan to write about it and just forget about those who are in my way, cause you are not worth to remember, after all, you take things too personal and what's worst is, you treat things personal during work time and you know what? I pity these people, personal is personal, work is work, you should understand what I'm trying to say...
Oh ya, one last thing, this may sound a bit rough, but when I think it over again, I think it's way too funny and fake as well. You know what I'm referring to? Don't you guys find it weird that only you guys can't take the words? Seriously, as if you guys can't even take criticism. So sad, sad to say, "Good medicine is always the bitter one" and there isn't any good medicine which is sweet in the moment though, it's true. Haha, I get the message now. Still, I leave no trails of hate; didn't you guys see why I apologize to all of you, in front of everybody? It's quite hard for some people, but for me, I will do it for the sake of not having hateness to take over you all. Do ask yourself? Who is cheating themselves? Who lie in order to spoil my name? Who is the one that define I treat people differently? Who? And why? Did I? Or are you just lying to yourself to obtain satisfaction?
Don't ask me, ask yourself, and you will get the answer from the bottom of your heart...
I treat people equally back then, and drag no personal feelings towards it. Who is the one that treat things unequally now? Who start the fight? And who doesn't take things seriously when it comes to work?
I am telling you guys something here...
Hey, I am just doing my job here, do you think that I wanted to do that to all of you? I'm even lazier then you guys, you think being an RM is easy? Taking all the height, the responsibility, reminding all of you what you should do although I know some of you guys dislike it, hate it and later turn things around and blame it all on me. I am just doing my job here. I have no issues with you guys either, so don't take it too personal. I'm just doing what I should do as an RM as I AM an RM for today, you can't deny the facts. But I'm grateful, cause you had showed me what faces you have. And I can tell you that I find it ugly and not worth to obtain them.
And do remember, I am not like you guys, I can take what you guys can't, just tell me what I have done wrong...
Last but not least, what awaits us in the near future is still a mystery. So, just wanna present you guys something, "birds of a feather flock together" and I'm not one of them. I don't respect either of you now...
I only respect those who accept other's criticism and admit the fact that they are wrong sometimes. That is the being that I will respect the most...
Having the guts to admit yourself is wrong is something hard to a human being as we always think we are correct in most of the things. So I'm also trying to be one, as I don't want to be someone like you, like you guys, who can't even accept that you are wrong. People like you only know how to blame others...
Talk about that, it reminds me of something...
The so-called good friend that I'm referring here, please recall the incident you and that gang, why you leave that gang. Remember the reason? If you compare it with this time, I can only say, that gang and you, makes no difference at all...
Sad to say that...