things come and go

it was dead since it ended~

I think this is human~

So don't blame
though you were once being appreciated
& being forgotten~

we are all selfish~
more or less...

哈~=)

两个条约：
第一条是：老婆永远是对的。
第二条是：如果真的是老婆错了，参考第一条。

Why

Why i still miss you~
Miss you very much~

Two things in mind & still fresh~

Today, I'm very happy cause I finally go to K!yeah!^.< and funny my sis joke about me as a singer in a competition and her friends believe xD Hahaha!So funny~ Oh well, but when it comes to the paying part, there goes the headache part~ Everything was a mess and the amount is messy as well~ That's where I came in, I did the calculation and make the situation right as we are paying more than we should because the so called payer didn't tell us the exact amount to pay but actually that person knows~ Why I say so? When I'm busying calculating, she told me the total amount needed to collect~ She deduct her own amount as well- meaning she knows what amount a person need to pay~ Sadly she didn't tell us in advance and let us pay extra in the first place, and right after I finish calculating she critic me as a calculator==||| Excuse me? Everyone has the right to know how much should they pay and that's the responsibility of a money collector/payer of the day to inform the rest of the people how much they need to pay, not by simply giving an amount and ask us to pay~ Oh come on, give me a break, I'm not saying anything bad about anyone but please, at least don't hate me for doing so @.@ that is so unreasonable~ I'm being calculative for a reason, like I said- everyone has their rights to know how much money they need to pay, if others wanna pay more than what you told them, that's their problem~ This is my thoughts, my way, and my reason for being calculative, and not because of any other reason, OK?

-Haiz-

Oh yeah! And one more thing~ Today, when I was on my way back by bus, I saw an immoral act~ Let's take the local bus driver as "A" and the international student/tourist as "B", to be fair. B entered the bus and was attempting the payment; as A was staring at him unpatiently~ B was going to a far distination which cost him Rm2, but he only had Rm10 and a Rm 1 (others I think is Rm50)~ Without any level of sympathy he ask B to leave or get a smaller change~ There I was sitting at a corner trying to pull some small change out of my wallet, and before I know it, B really ran and went down to the counter trying to get some small change~ And I was like: "Hey? Seriously~" WTF! A quickly shut the door, manually! WTH! A just go off without B==||| OMFG! I think this is what the B will think: "F*** You! Stupid Malaysian!" And I can tell you that this is the first impression other B's will get, eventually!==||| Let's all say F*** you, "A", for being a malaysian, a local as well! Image of Malaysia is completely abolished! Sad~

Deny

“我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没听过”。。。

Whenever this song is broadcasted...
It really reminds me of you no matter how I deny/refuse to accept it...
The lyrics, it meant what it means~

31st March

Today is a very memorial day,
though you might not remember or want to recall the time we spend together more than I do,
I'm happy to know that you are doing great...
-Wish you a very Happy Birthday and may all your wishes come true-
~Missing you~

Dragonica++

This is the first online game that I’ve played in my entire life-Dragonica…

Back in the days, when I was around 15, I take an online game as a lame old piece of shit and I never touch any online games till I was 18. Well, that’s one of the reasons why I didn’t make any contact with it, but seriously it was the connection problem actually-bad line/connection. You’ll definitely see me pig-ing whenever I return, my hometown of course~

Those were the days~

Whenever I think about it now, I start to regret. As for a personal stand, I think online games maybe addictive,sometimes, in a way, but it is also a "HomE". Well, maybe not everyone get my picture right~

(In times of need…) At least there is someone you can talk to and share your pain; it is more like a hang-out place or a second family. That’s my personal stand. Maybe I picture it too perfect, but frankly speaking, there are two sides to everything. I guess that’s the law of nature. I think it all falls down to the choice that was made; like a weapon for instant, there is no good or bad to it, because it depends on the user and that determines and mark the signs...

There are times, when I was so emotional, almost fell apart, the so-called Dragonica game actually help me a lot. Not to say I’m addicted to it or so, the friends that I met are so damn nice^.< in times of despair, they gave a helping hand, light my candle and shine my dark era with a ray of hope. To be honest, I felt that twice, and I was in heaven and I was like touched. I whispered:"how lucky am I to have such friends at those particular time." ^.^

Supposedly, you can define me as a loud speaker not to mention a very talkative person, but that depends on the environment and the feedback I get from the others. Oh yeah, and the respond I get. If things turn out bad, you’ll see me staring to withdraw and eventually iced~ On the other hand, I'll go boom if I get a nice and noisy friend xD

"BoycotT"~

That is a very well known WORD in my dictionary as for I am quite an engine-liked person(passive); need someone to start my engine before I can proceed. Funny to say, I am and I admit that it is a fact. Worst come to worst, I shut my mouth for a day. It is quite common for me. On the contrary, you can say now it is happening again. But I’m very thankful that some of my friends still cherish me^.^ therefore, though I’m a lone wolf, I’m not actually “LonE” in a way~

Haha, but most of them are guys, and that’s why some people will ask:”Are you gay?” come on guys, that is not funny at all~ I am so damn NOT!N-O-T, NOT! what do you expect? I am considered a foreigner here, so I don’t really have a good friend, here. And I'll get respond like:”Why don’t you try mixing around?” well, blending in is my first move when I enter college. You could say that most of the people there are local and they are practically “GroupeD”. So the chances are 50% below. Believe me, i tried, tons of trying~

As ironic as it is, I think this is a wasteland, only when I am emotional. But I guess that is a process that everyone needs to go through, a test, a challenge, or perhaps a cross road~

Oh well, better get used to it and over come it~

As for a wrapping, I guess that is what I have in mind now. And it all comes from a game called-Dragonica. It inspired me and gave me excitements. But sadly, I think all of this will come to an end, what comes around turn around; there'll be an ending if there's a start. I’m going to miss it as I’m going inactive again, MIA-missing in action xD HAHA!

...(No hard feelings though, I'm cool with what I have ^__^)...

Fire&Ice

It's been a climatic changing week~
May peace befalls~
Let's carry on~

Mark it as the Lone Wolf's

Maybe it's fate that i end up here today~
Frankly speaking, it's not my kind of place though i try to blend~
Oh well, maybe i will find my rightful place once again~
In the near future~
Ya, it's decided then~
I will definitely find one, a new place for myself, i'm sure of it ^@^
Till then!
Stand alone as a proud wolf!
An undefeatable Lone Wolf~
I will Fight till the end~

Mark Of The Wolf~~~~~~

爱过了头

当你哭着对我说 你对不起我
原来你和他 不只是好朋友
为你打造的王国 经不起诱惑
你裝作我会原谅 你的选择

谁能够预知的结果
爱从左胸口出走

爱过了头 我一个人狂奔怒吼
我没有哭 却让汗水给吞没
爱过了头 没了出口就只能放手
我给你自由 为什么我双手却在颤抖

你说他比我幽默 比我懂生活
你喜欢享受刺激 胜过温柔
爱应该轻轻挥霍 我有胆承受
哪怕让人堕落 也胜过没爱过

谁能够预知的结果
爱从左胸口出走

爱过了头 我一个人狂奔怒吼
像只困兽 舔着伤口地活着
爱过了头 没了出口就只能割舍
我给你自由 为什么我的心却在颤抖
别问我 难不难过

像只困兽 舔着伤口地活着
爱过了头 没了出口就只能割舍
我给你自由 为什么我的心却在颤抖
我没有难过 只是爱你比爱我更多

HuH?

"Giving up doesn't always mean that u r weak,
sometimes it also means that u r strong enough to let go"
Huh?
But I seriously hope it was not meant to encourage people on giving up,
Because that will be very stupid...

永遠の

街道的树上残留的雪花
光和风洒落在上面
即使抬头看或低头看
仍无法停止季节的脚步
犹如拉指勾交换的
再见下次见等这般话语
习惯的动作是否能忘记
还是走向不同的未来

如果这次的离别只是起程的开始
我会给你全部的笑脸
彼此的相遇和走过的街道
永远停留在彼此的心中
一直无法忘记
即使开启多少门
即使相隔多远
牵住的手永不放开

即使多么舍不得也必须忘记
难道不能面对自己吗
开始开动,隔着月台
你渐渐消失

你曾对于遭受挫折的我
哭着说没关系
因为已经变的坚强的不在害羞
我们约定实现梦想
虽然没有声音的哭泣
在这心里流动
不后悔的继续前进
I'm sorry for your tenderness 在下次相见之前
Everlasting~~~~~~~

Thanks for everything~

Originally, I thought my choice was the best,
And it was suppose to be the best I have at my current situation...
As I'm not that kind of guy that'll just forget someone once important to me...
So I came up with this after a week++...

Anyway, Thanks...
Thanks for everything...
And also because you chose to tell me about it...
Now let me tell you about mine...

"I choose to be your friend, again"...

But sadly...
You're still blaming yourself...
Means: "I fail to prevent that after all"...

..."I chose to do that, because of you"...

......You know?......

So please don't blame yourself any more...

成全最爱的你，就是不要看着你自责～

Look Forward:
(...Huh?...)

~If I were to look forward now, I'll see you there~

Thanks for your time!

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.

It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday." Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

"Jack, did you hear me?"

"Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said.

"Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it," Mom told him.

"I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said.

"You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life," she said

"He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said. "I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important....Mom, I'll be there for the funeral," Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time.

Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

"What's wrong, Jack?" his Mom asked.

"The box is gone," he said

"What box?" Mom asked.

"There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell me was 'the thing I value most,'" Jack said.

It was gone.. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it.

"Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom."

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died Returning home from work one day Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. "Signature required on a package.. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days," the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention.. "Mr. Harold Belser" it read. Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside.

"Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life." A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch.

Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved:

"Jack, Thanks for your time! -Harold Belser."

"The thing he valued most was....my time"

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days. "Why?" Janet, his assistant asked.

"I need some time to spend with my son," he said.

"Oh, by the way, Janet, thanks for your time!"

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,"

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

5. You mean the world to someone.

6. If not for you, someone may not be living.

7. You are special and unique.

8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

11. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

13. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.

14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

we meet again

surprisingly,we meet again after a few years...
to be honest, i miss you a lot...
i miss your voice, your smile, your naughtiness and your jokes...
it has been nearly two years...
and that was our time, which is a history now...
i was excited at the small party as i know you will turned up...
kinda chat a lot, joke a lot, play a lot, eat a lot(they eat a lot,not me)...
you are the same, as always,
as funny as usual,
as cute as ever,
as pretty as ever,
but even sexier now,
attractive,
and more mature liked...(but kinda grow fatter xD)
you're the boom...
unfortunately,
you are another guy's cup of tea now...
i guess that's what they meant by different world kind of people huh?
i couldn't give you what you wanted,
that's what i know~
and i think that's obvious...
that's why you left two years ago...
i guess you can't kept our promise because you know this was coming~
and i know that too...
you are going to have a shop of your own soon~
with your guy~
i hope everything will turn up well and smooth...
sorry, but i don't think i'll be there to support you~
life's unfair~
i think it's about surviving,
most of the time...
well,
live on...
happily...
that's all i have to say for now~

PVP

oh man!kinda feel the pain in the chest right after a one on one PVP with a higher lv!kinda happy cause i can win that guy,but too bad,that guy lags,and laggers are benificial on PVP,now i know why!Argh~haha,pain,pain-in the chest...too excited!!haha,hmm,think i can't take excitement which are really overwhelming.haha,now i can't sleep@.@ over excited,pain is dominating~in the chest@.@ Shizzle!Shizzle!!!!!!

最痛的感受

你约束你跟我只做好朋友
袂堪搁为着爱情来担忧
missing you I'm missing you
心碎心痛已无求
今夜有你陪我做阵唱一首
痴心的情歌越唱越忧愁
missing you I'm missing you
失去甘是一种自由
最痛的感受

不知何时才轮到我，一次认真的爱恋，好让我有个机会可以好好地去爱一个人...

明白？

那是我 第一次深爱过
也是最后一次我对人说
也许你还是不相信我
还是你真的不爱我 你告诉我

有时我会想离开 想证明我的爱
或许我还不明白 你给的是不是爱
我在门外 我在等你叫我回来
除非你真的不再对我关怀

我想念你的爱 没有人看出来
或许我早该明白 你给的并不是爱
别再责怪 我不想你受到伤害
因为你是我最深爱的女孩

=Reprogrammed=

Days and weeks pass by like a stream...
As usual,
the days in the college had began...
Something came into my mind suddenly,
well...
Still dono how to put it into words...
Hmm,
well at least it is a good thing for me,
as i'm not that being overwhelmed-(already)...
Anyway,
it's a new year,
and it's gonna be a totally new tomoro...
I hope to make it to the end of the rainbow and collect the gold xD
If there is one =D
Happy new year and good luck to all in this magnificent year!

召唤兽

我愿做你的召唤兽
陪你闯危险的宇宙
期待你有一天
回头看看我
当你真的躲不过诱惑
我安然地放手
再回到角落狩猎
你我永远的以后

我愿做你的召唤兽
一生配合你的要求
不能够忍受你
可能失去我
当你疲倦坠落的时候
能抓住我的手
哪怕是只有一秒的梦
也值得追求

傻瓜

只要你愿意开口说
我一定听

死结

你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
你带走的快乐 我没了知觉
一个人面对每个日夜
你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我们的爱已无法脱险
你打了死结

我願放開雙手
給你自由
給你夢
給你寬闊天空飛翔放縱
你說愛他靈魂
為他犧牲是認真
你是他的風箏
該由他來心疼
別管沈默的我
孤獨的我怎麼過
你要珍重自己好好生活
我願美麗風箏
快樂天真去遨翔
就算我一個人孤獨荒涼

SorrY

想说声对不起,
是我让你不决定,
剩下零碎的回忆,
你能不能在为我复习...

想说声对不起,
是我让你不决定,
缺了你我已失去,
一半的自己...

...(对不起）...