Past

Wow, last night, I really exceeded my limit...
From the minute I woke up, I went to college and had my kitchen class...
When I finish my class, wush, there I go again...
I ran home to take a bath mainly to refresh myself and to get rid of the sweat...
Later on, I went to Sungai Wang with one of my NS friend...
Hoho, and she was gonna choose a dress for her on going wedding dinner on this coming saturday...
We shopped for about 5 hours searching for a perfect dress...
Finally we saw one perfect dress that she likes...
WoW, she was so sexy and pretty in that dress...
Some how I think girls in dresses are so sexy >.<
Haha, and we go tempanyaki for dinner...
The Sukiyaki is very nice and very cheap as it is very big in size, those mad eaters can't miss it, but it is full of vegetables =p
It only cost about RM 10.00, not bad right?
When I reached home, my legs were really killing me, damn it was burning like hell...
Haha, I clean myself real fast and jump onto my bed to give myself some resting while sms'ing with my friends...
After that, I fall asleep as usual =p
Meanwhile, I had a strange dream, and I get all blank in the morning thinking of her...
That dream goes like this...
It was a sunny day in my school at Taiping, it is a high school actually...
I was enjoying my meal of "Nasi Lemak" in the canteen while people were playing soccer on the field...
When I'm feasting, suddenly, the discipline teacher came and had a spot check on the spot...
As I was so in to it, eating my delicious meal, that I didn't realize the disciplinary teacher was there...
In time, I was interrupted by them, a discipline teacher and a prefect by the side...
I was in my regular T-shirt and slippers, so I was being questioned and interrogated...
When everything is finished, I was so shock to see tons of photos appearing on my plate of unfinished Nasi Lemak...
When I turn the photo, I saw her on the photo, the very first girl that I fall in love with...
I was so shocked and surprise that I stood up Scannig around myself, searching for the guy who attached those photos on my plate but I fail to do that...
Everyone in the canteen was staring at me with astonishing eyes and I was like didn't really care about them...
The quantity of the photos was huge, and I started to tuck those photos in my pocket as fast as I could as I don't want anyone to see it...
Suddenly, I woke up by myself right before my alarm triggers...
I suddenly go blank and thought about her again, the photos were so clear...
It was her sweet little face, a face that I won't forget in my entire life...
She was a cute, beautiful, active, playful, smart, tough and a hardworking girl...
I was falling on my knees for her that time, real bad, haha...
She was not from a wealthy family but she was a willing to work kind of girl...
That is so my type of girl...
Although the world is being unfair to her, I still love her a lot...
She works at night to earn and to take care of her father while she manages her schooling and homework quite well...
At least that is what I get to know that time...
We were a happy couple back then...
But sadly to say, things didn't turn out quite well in the end for us, we had a serious misunderstanding and she stopped talking to me for two months...
Still, I waited for her...
I was so damn frustrated for some unfair decision she made but I waited patiently in the end...
Finally she gave me a call one night but she stated that she wanted to break up with me...
It was only the third month since we were a couple...
Surely I am the one who disagree, MOST! And I ask if things could be reversed, but I was rejected for she was too determine...
Till now, I still don't have a clear reason why she left me...
All she left for me was : "You are a good guy" and "Sometimes you treat me too good till I'm in a lot of pressure"...
I am totally lost within those phrases...
That day, I was so down that I can't even sleep and eat for a whole day...
I requested to met her the last time but was rejected as she says she may change her mind later on because she may missed the time we spent together or maybe something like that...
She once told me that she won't leave me that easily...
I trusted her with my heart and soul but still, the table turns...
So, that is how we broke up...
Till now, we walked our seperated ways for nearly about one and a half years...
She is still working in the same place but now she works twice as a two types of work...
Well, we still chat, only sometimes...
Quite rare, as she is a busy girl...
Now, I finally understand what the phrase "We are of the different world" means...
That is, after my second time of failure in relationship...
But sometimes I disagree...
It is because my parents set a very good example for that "Different" kind of world couple...
My dad was from a quite standard family while my mum was from a quite normal of maybe even lower than normal...
Although the fact remains cruelly, I admire my dad and my mum as they went through so many blockage together and they never give up...
Finally, they made it in the end...
And who says different worlds of people can't be together?
Well, not me, definitely NOT me...
I encounter the same thing again in my second relationship...
Man, why am I always the unlucky one?
I know I may end up with ThaT again way ahead of time as it is not an easy thing, but still, I press on with my heart and soul ; as I am trying to prove that this cruel world is not a match for true love...
Those kinds of things are not an excuse for me and moreover, that is the type of girls I like...
Well, I am really speechless now...
What I have in mind is...
Nothing is impossible if you put your heart and soul in it, even the impossible maybe a possible...
I just hope everything will turn out well throughout my unrevealed future...
I will try my very best to make the best out of everything in my life...