Realize

I never thought I would come across a day when I came to realize life is not that beautiful-like I imagine it would be...
They say "it's even harder to be a good guy compared to being a bad guy"...
You know what? I came to realize that today...
And it also goes like this, "having one friend is better than having none at all"...
Unfortunately, from my point of view, trust and the understanding between friends is more to it. Meaning, I rather have only a few trustworthy and understanding real friends then having those who can't even get over with small things. From the choosing friend part, I really disagree on "having one is better than none". So when it comes to serious decision making, i will even choose none...
Not to mention, I came across things like "not everybody will like or agree with you all the time". Well, you could say it is very commonly heard, but I finally taste the meaning of this, the hard way. Not to say that I'm very mad at all these, cause I know what attitude the other holds, and i don't have issues about it as I tried to understand them as well. Now I got my answer, they don't need me to understand, well, fine to me. Shockingly, what i'm surprise is that one my good friend-that is, if that is what she thinks of me. She really doesn't have a clue about me does she? All these time, you mean I'm talking to myself? Well, maybe you are lucky to met someone like me, tell you this, i don't hate, sad, mad, angry or frust because of you doing so. My way of doing things is to forget. So if you take things that way, fine by me, I can just cast everything aside and say goodbye. So, you choose...
Guys, you know what? I'm not those people that don't take things seriously, you know? Yayaya, I know sometimes we shouldn't take things that serious like I do, but remember to set your limit. It's funny to think about it you know? But i plan to write about it and just forget about those who are in my way, cause you are not worth to remember, after all, you take things too personal and what's worst is, you treat things personal during work time and you know what? I pity these people, personal is personal, work is work, you should understand what I'm trying to say...
Oh ya, one last thing, this may sound a bit rough, but when I think it over again, I think it's way too funny and fake as well. You know what I'm referring to? Don't you guys find it weird that only you guys can't take the words? Seriously, as if you guys can't even take criticism. So sad, sad to say, "Good medicine is always the bitter one" and there isn't any good medicine which is sweet in the moment though, it's true. Haha, I get the message now. Still, I leave no trails of hate; didn't you guys see why I apologize to all of you, in front of everybody? It's quite hard for some people, but for me, I will do it for the sake of not having hateness to take over you all. Do ask yourself? Who is cheating themselves? Who lie in order to spoil my name? Who is the one that define I treat people differently? Who? And why? Did I? Or are you just lying to yourself to obtain satisfaction?
Don't ask me, ask yourself, and you will get the answer from the bottom of your heart...
I treat people equally back then, and drag no personal feelings towards it. Who is the one that treat things unequally now? Who start the fight? And who doesn't take things seriously when it comes to work?
I am telling you guys something here...
Hey, I am just doing my job here, do you think that I wanted to do that to all of you? I'm even lazier then you guys, you think being an RM is easy? Taking all the height, the responsibility, reminding all of you what you should do although I know some of you guys dislike it, hate it and later turn things around and blame it all on me. I am just doing my job here. I have no issues with you guys either, so don't take it too personal. I'm just doing what I should do as an RM as I AM an RM for today, you can't deny the facts. But I'm grateful, cause you had showed me what faces you have. And I can tell you that I find it ugly and not worth to obtain them.
And do remember, I am not like you guys, I can take what you guys can't, just tell me what I have done wrong...
Last but not least, what awaits us in the near future is still a mystery. So, just wanna present you guys something, "birds of a feather flock together" and I'm not one of them. I don't respect either of you now...
I only respect those who accept other's criticism and admit the fact that they are wrong sometimes. That is the being that I will respect the most...
Having the guts to admit yourself is wrong is something hard to a human being as we always think we are correct in most of the things. So I'm also trying to be one, as I don't want to be someone like you, like you guys, who can't even accept that you are wrong. People like you only know how to blame others...
Talk about that, it reminds me of something...
The so-called good friend that I'm referring here, please recall the incident you and that gang, why you leave that gang. Remember the reason? If you compare it with this time, I can only say, that gang and you, makes no difference at all...
Sad to say that...